Terror Firsthand #57: Sticking To The Script

 ©Terror Firsthand is a fictional blog series that was created in 2024. It is for entertainment purposes only, and I wrote it from the top of my head. Photos are reenactments and dramatization. The following story is for mature audiences only. Please, do not try anything dangerous at home. 

Warning: extreme terror 

Terror Firsthand: Sticking To The Script 

A picture of Jametreis White's burn victim before the incident 

The next day, I spent all day in silence. I was traumatized by how GD6Star was killed. It's all good though. I watched a documentary about him on TV. I learned a lot of things about him that I didn't know before. I found out that he had caught a case for burning a woman's face off with hot boiling water during a domestic violence dispute. 

The unidentified woman was forced to wear a mask everyday because she said during an interview that everywhere she went, people were bullying her. She had multiple skin graft surgeries and her face was still disfigured. She also complained about how she was living on a monthly disability check due to the traumatic event because she could no longer work, and how the money wasn't enough to survive. She said that she could barely afford anything.

Life had really sucked for the nameless victim thanks to Jametreis White. The woman was so disfigured, that you couldn't even tell she was a human being. A picture of how the woman looked before she was burned popped up on the screen. She looked almost like a model. She didn't look like that anymore. She said that whenever she showed people a picture of how she used to look, people say that it isn't her. She said that no one believes her. 

The Jametreis White victim said it broke her heart so bad that people switched up on her because of the way she looked, that she stopped showing people how she used to look before the incident and stopped telling people that Jametreis burned her. She stated that she never takes the mask off. 

The unidentified victim also said that Jametreis was never charged for the crime, because the case was thrown out. She claimed that Jametreis settled with her out of court for an amount she did not mention. Obviously it wasn't anything if she was living on disability. He probably gave her ass less than $2,000.

The nameless Jametreis White victim also complained about having to live in a house with 9 other people, and how she was forced to pay $500 in rent, just to live with that many people. She said that most of the people were mentally ill and it felt sickening living in the house with them because they were too unclean and embarrassing. She said that she wanted to live by herself, but couldn't afford to. She complained that she barely had any money left over after bills, and that living like that was no way to live. 

Jametreis White's burn victim at the home where she now lives

I knew the Jametreis White victim was suicidal, just by the way she sounded. I knew she didn't want to tell anyone that she felt that way due to fear of hospitalization. The GD6Star victim also went on to say that she was on a waiting list for public housing all the way in New York City, so she could be closer to her mother. 

The nameless Jametreis White victim, also said in the documentary that she created a Gofundme account to raise money for a new tiny home so that she wouldn't have to live in public housing, but she said that people were calling her a scam, and telling people not to donate to her account so she ended up deleting it. She said that she had no other family except a mother in New York. Her mother lived in a tiny one bedroom apartment in the Bronx with her boyfriend, and suffered from acute Schizophrenia. She said that her mother's boyfriend was very abusive towards her mother but her mother wouldn't kick him out of the apartment for nothing in the world. She stated that she was scared that her mother's boyfriend would just kill her mother eventually. 

I was shocked by everything I saw. I couldn't believe GD6Star was so violent. I'm glad I left him when he did! The arguments that I had with Jametreis White never escalated that far! No wonder Rameika Gonzalez killed him. He was probably being abusive to her too, in addition to the murder being a hit from GD7Star. 

In the documentary, it also showed a short clip of the Pimping Bacc In Style video. I was in the clip. I started crying. I couldn't believe my face was actually in his documentary. No media outlet bothered contacting me about a documentary. No media outlet asked to speak to me.

I saw a clip of Jametreis White's mom. She was crying. In the clip she said to the press, 

"I told my son to get out of that gang a long time ago but he wouldn't listen! I also told him to stay away from those nasty ass prostitutes and those saddity hood rats like Rameika Gonzalez! I hope Rameika rot in prison for the rest of her life for killing my son! I never liked any of the women my son dated! I knew they were foul!" Said his mother, Antoinette White. Obviously Jametreis White was foul too. Who would want to keep a man that would burn someone's whole face off? 

Antoinette White was crying hysterically and screaming at the top of her lungs in the news video clip. GD6Star had one other sister, named Veronica White, who was 25 years old, and his sister was holding his mother's hand in the clip. Veronica looked like a butch lesbian. She was ugly. His mom looked like a fem lesbian. They were both ugly. 

Antoinette White b*tching to the press 

I cut the TV off after that. The documentary was over. I could barely eat. I drove to a nearby liquor store and purchased a bottle of On The Rocks. I didn't want to drink anything too hard because I know where drinking too much hard liquor leads to- death, homelessness, or prison. I poured out a tiny shot for GD6Star, Daddy Leroy, Big Ski and all the other phoney niggas I had encountered. 

I started feeling bad inside of the tent. I started missing Darrell. He had never hit me back up. I knew he wasn't the one and that I couldn't call him back. Besides, he was smelly looking anyway. He was too fat. I figured I'd just get back on the chat line again when I was ready to fu*k someone else.

Later on that night, I thought about filming another movie so I purchased some new lightening equipment. I hit up a few actors online but their fee was too high. I told them that I could only pay them $60 an hour for the roles. Most of them were requesting at least $300. I guess they thought they were celebrities or something. Most of them didn't even have an acting reel or any previous acting experience on their profiles, and had the nerve to request such a high salary.

I cancelled the untitled movie production and decided to just stick to releasing music. It's too much competition anyway. Every storyline I came up with would already be out in someone elses million dollar production already. I would've just looked like a low budget copycat anyway. There are too many urban movies with the same exact storyline or similar storylines. 

I scheduled a music video shoot instead, for one of the songs I had written. No one was going to be in the video, except me. I spent the rest of the day having an extremely long moment of silence.

As far as my music video wardrobe goes, I started to do what I learned is called "wardrobing", but I changed my mind because it felt wrong. Wardrobing is when you buy clothes from the store, wear them for social media, and then return them to the store. Studies have shown that people age 35-44 are most likely to do something like that, and especially men. I'm not a man.

Some websites, like Amazon, for example, have a "try before you buy" feature. After doing further research on what wardrobing is, I learned that it is actually fraudulent behavior. It also says on Amazon's Prime website, not to wear the "Try before You Buy" clothes out in public unless you plan to purchase them. I decided not to get anything from the Try Before You Buy because it's very corny. I don't plan on buying any of those high priced designer clothes just to wear one time. 

Getting wardrobe ready for upcoming music video 

I'm not going to abuse that "Try before You Buy" feature by wearing all those designer clothes in a music video and then returning it. I'm just going to stick to the outfits that I can actually afford, which is what I did. I brought several new outfits for the private video shoot and stuck to the script. Wardrobing is for lames, and it's not something that I'm ever going to get caught doing. All of the clothes that I wore for social media are still in my closet, even if I'm not going to wear them ever again.

It would be fun if wardrobing was actually a legitimate hustle, but unfortunately, it's not. Amazon's website should say that you can wear the Try Before You Buy clothes anywhere you want and still return them. That would be nice.

I went on the Balenciaga website so I could find the $23,000 jacket I was looking for and the $7000 blue fur coat that I spotted last time I was on the site. I was going to create a wishlist to put on Escorts4U.com just in case a sugar daddy wanted to buy something for me. They had a wishlist section on there for the escort profiles. I accidentally clicked on someone else's ad the last time I was on there, and I saw the pettiest things on their wishlist. The person wanted realistic sh*t like a McDonald's gift card, a Dollar Tree gift card, and a Rainbow gift card. They also asked for tickets to see Sexy Bluuee in NYC. I hurried up and got off of that person's profile. 

If I was creating a wishlist for my sugar daddies, it would look nothing like that. I would have outrageous request like - a week vacation at the Two Seasons hotel, a Versace gift card, a custom 14K tennis chain and pendant, a new DSLR Canon or Sony camera, a 600 mm lens, and a brand new McLaren. I decided not to make a wishlist. I didn't want to compete with the low budget escorts.

While I was scrolling on the Balenciaga website, I saw one of the gayest outfits I had ever seen. It was a shirt with a rainbow pride flag on it. I knew right then and there that Balenciaga was gay. I didn't like their stuff anymore and I'm mad I even mentioned them in my songs and in films. What a gay damn brand. Balenciaga is something that I do not want to wear anymore. I added them to my "Do not shop list". I changed my mind about liking it. It's bad enough that I have to shop at gay weed dispensaries, I don't want to shop at gay clothing stores too. I hurried up and exited the Gaylenciaga website, never to return again. Their names have been changed to Gaylenciaga. 

The model on the Gaylenciaga website 

Later that night I fixed cod and calamari for dinner. I did a little bit of writing and then gazed at the stars while cooking s'mores all night. Then I fell asleep. While I was asleep, I had a bad nightmare that someone was trying to kill me. I woke up several times during the night. My heart kept racing. I kept thinking someone would be standing over me with a gun, but it was just a bad dream. No one was there.